I assume that most people recognize the enmity that has grown for scene kids and hipsters today. As a former scene kid, (I am ashamed to admit that my MySpace name was Emma Ecstasy) I can see both sides of this situation. Please excuse the generalizations.
There's such a pressure in today's society to "be yourself." Kids are told not to strive to fit in with the majority. The issue here is that kids really have no idea who they are. I know I didn't.
I saw My Chemical Romance on Saturday Night Live in 2007 and was hit with the epiphany that I had the freedom to be my own person, so I took advantage of that freedom. I put on a ton of eyeliner, straightened the living daylights out of my hair, and adopted several pairs of Tripp skinny jeans. I did this because I felt like I had something to prove every second of every day. If I wasn't dressed like a gothic angel, other badasses in the vicinity wouldn't realize that I was one of them. I was craving some form of community, because at this point, I was not strong enough to stand on my own. Being exceedingly edgy gave the illusion that I was an outcast and didn't give two shits about anyone's opinion, but clandestinely gave me access to a populace of other outcasts.
I think this is the reasoning behind scene kids, hipsters, and any other group of bonafide black sheep. We are told that we aren't obligated to fit in with the majority, but insecure teenagers have to fit in somewhere, don't they? Some choose to fit in with the majority, and some choose to fit in with the minority (i.e. hipsters or scene kids.) From what I've observed, most teenagers go through this period of needing to fit in with a specific group.
I'm proud to say that I've grown out of it. I feel much more free now that I'm not attempting to keep up with some vision of a perfect, model-like, punk girl. I am who I am. I dress in what I find to be fashionable. I style my hair the way I want it, not to a standard that someone else has decided. I realized at some point that I have nothing to immediately prove. People either know me, or they do not, and I won't flaunt my own personality traits just so strangers are aware that they exist.
I still listen to much of the same music that I did in 2007. My Chemical Romance is still one of my favorite groups. I still maintain the rebellious attitude that I've always had, even before my scene kid days. I guess I simply found who I truly am in my personality traits that have stayed with me for as long as I can remember. I let things flow. Given, it took quite a journey to get to the point where "acting natural" actually felt natural, I'm so glad I went through that journey. I wouldn't be as strong a person I am today if I hadn't been Emma Ecstasy at one point.
hahahahah oh emma i feel the same exact way
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