Societal Repression

"My heart hurts. I just want to hug him and tell him everything that has been going wrong since we parted ways. I'd tell him that I want to get out of school and why. I'd tell him that I cannot focus on anything anymore and why. I'd tell him that I'm always tired, and that I cannot blink without thinking painful thoughts. I'd tell him that I may be losing my best friend, that I am always so lonesome, that I have no idea where my life is going, that I feel worthless, and that I need him. I want to give voice to all of these thoughts with my head resting on his chest while he strokes my hair. (If I could ever be placed in that situation, I would never be upset over him again. I would be absolutely content.) I would fall asleep there on his chest, listening to the rhythm of his heartbeat and his breathing, knowing that I was loved. No music playing, just two humans in the silence. That's all we are. Two humans, neither greater than the other. Just people with matching pheromones. That's all." 12/14/11


It's true. That is all any of us are - one hundred percent human.


It is my opinion that people take life far too seriously under all the wrong circumstances. Respectively, what you feel is what you feel. This is nature, for God's sake. I'm not promoting barbarianism, but it isn't exactly a fine line. Things exist that are absolutely natural and are societally rejected for hardly any reason at all.


I have never understood society's determination to destroy everything about us that is truly human, and I don't think I'll ever understand. But this is who I am. I feel things, I make mistakes, I learn. That's how life works. The more we pretend the humanity within us doesn't exist, the worse off we will be as a civilization.